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THE FIRST 10 YEARS IN THE VOID

by STUBBORN

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RUINED 05:21
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SAVE ME I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE I WANNA OUT OF HERE, AWAY FROM WHAT I USED TO BE HEAL ME HEAL ALL MY WOUNDS,I'M BROKEN I'M RUINED I HAVE MY SOUL BROKEN I HAVE MY MIND CAGED I'M RUINED CLEANSE ME CLEANSE OF THIS GUILT ALL WHAT I HAVE BUILT,WHAT I'VE BELIEVED IN IS RUINED HEAR ME HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING,THIS IS WHAT I'M PRAYING ABOUT HEAR MY SILENT SHOUTS I'M RUINED NOW
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BREAK THRU SUFFERING 05:51
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..AND WE CANT TURN IT AWAY I WISH WE COULD HEAL THIS PAIN ..THERE IS NO OTHER WAY WE'VE TO BREAK THRU THIS SUFFER ..I DONT WHAT I SHOULD SAY I WISH I FOUND AGAIN MY SANE ..THERE ARE THINGS WE CANT GET THESE TORMENTS LAST ALL OVER THIS IS OUR THORNY PATH OUR PATH TO GO THRU ..AND THEN WE'LL GET OUR LIGHT BACK ..I CANT EVEN FEEL ANYTHING I WISH WE STOPPED THIS NUMBNESS ..THERE IS A WALL TO BREAK WE'VE TO EXPRIATE OUR SINS LOOK BACK SEE HOW IT USED TO BE ..WE STILL CANT TURN IT AWAY I KNOW WE'LL BE FREE FROM THIS PAIN ..THERE IS NO OTHER WAY WE MUST MOVE FORWARD
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FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS 05:35
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I'VE BEEN DRAINED I COULD NOT DO ANYTHING I'M STAINED WITH PAIN WHICH I'VE CAUSED TO YOU I SUFFER IN THIS VOID OF EMPTINESS THE FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS DRAINING YOU POWER AWAY THE FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS I'M STILL HERE ALONE IN MY PRIVATE HELL THE TIME HAS COME FOR LIGHT TO DIM WHEN THE HOPE IS DEAD AND EVERYTHING IS UNCERTAIN HOW COULD I END THIS EMPTINESS? THE FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS DRAINING YOU POWER AWAY THE FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS
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CLASH OF EGOS 02:00
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WHAT CAN WE SEE WHAT CAN WE HEAR WHAT CAN WE FEEL AND TELL EACH OTHER WE ALL ARE NUMB IT'S SO FUCKED UP OUR LIVES MEAN TO OTHER NOTHING THIS IS CLASH OF EGOS THIS IS WHAT TO TAKE OVER WE MUST CLIMB THIS MOUNTAIN WE MUST BREAK THIS WALL WHEN WE CAN SEE WHEN WE CAN HEAR WHEN WE CAN FEEL WE'LL TELL EACH OTHER HOW WAS IT DUMP AND SO FUCKED UP WHEN OUR LIVES MEANT TO OTHER NOTHING
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PRESSED BY WEIGHT OF CONSCIENCE 02:09
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I'VE SEEN NO LIGHT FOR MANY DAYS NO END IN SIGHT I SET MY WORLD ABLAZE DOWNTRODDEN (AND) PRESSED BY WEIGHT OF CONSIENCE DROWNED IN MIND FALLEN FAR FROM GRACE ALMOST DEAD INSIDE - SOMETHING HOLDS ME TIGHT THERE'RE THINGS TO FACE
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SPREADING OUT HOSTILITY 02:55
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IT IS ABOUT TO MAKE ME FRAGILE SUCKS OUT MY WILL, KEEPS PAINFUL DREDGING ESTRANGING, STARVING AND EDGING ERASING REALMS, PITIFUL RAGING COWARD.. PATHETIC AND ALMOST DONE BEHIND THIS OUTWARD CONFIDENCE LIE BELIEFS THAT RUIN ONE BY ONE AND I CAN’T ALWAYS KEEP IT IN SPREADING OUT HOSTILITY NEGATIVE APPROACH TO EVERYTHING CONSTANT DOUBT.. NOT ABLE TO IMAGINE (IT) LEADS ME TO THRILL KEEPS PAINFUL WAGING PLEDGING.. MINUTES LAST FOR AGES IT OVERWHELMS.. WORTHLESS RAGING COWARD.. EMETIC AND ALMOST GONE BEHIND THIS OUTWARD CONFIDENCE HIDE DISBELIEFS WHICH GROW STRONGER. I’M OVERDONE GOTTA TAKE CONTROL OVER MY MIND AND BODY
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COARSENING (ORDEAL PURGES) 05:28
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THOUGHTS..WORDS..AND CONSTANT FEAR SMOKE.. WALLS.. THINGS ARE LIKE UNREAL LOST COUNT OF DAYS. TIME STANDS STILL NO GOOD WAYS.. AND BROKEN WILL SLOTH.. LOATH.. (IT’S) HARD TO FEEL CLOCK.. CHOKE.. TENSION AND PEAL SUFFERING FROM NIGHTMARES - THEY ARE TOO REAL NOBODY CARES. THAT IS MY ORDEAL ORDEALS LEAD TO COARSENING (BECOMING FEELING-PROOF) THOUGHTS.. WORDS.. IT’S MADNESS’ FEED SMOKE.. WALLS.. GONNA BURY AND CONCEAL (ME) ENDLESS ROW OF DAYS. AS IF TIME STANDS STILL LONGING FOR THE WAYS. SILENCE BREAKS THE WILL SLOTH.. LOATH.. NOWHERE TO FLEE CLOCK.. CHOKES.. TENSION MAKES ME PLEAD LIVING THRU THE NIGHTMARES. DOUBT IF THAT’S ALL FOR REAL AND NO ONE DARES TO SHARE THIS ORDEAL
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EFFORTS TO MISLEAD 02:29
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FAILURE.. (IT’S) JUST WAY TO TEST ME THE WAY TO REPRESS ME TO OBSCURE MY MIND AND WASTE ME EFFORT TO MISLEAD ATTEMPT TO CONCEIT DESPICABLE CONFUSION FAVOR.. (IT’S) THE WAY TO ABUSE ME EFFORT TO SEDUCE ME (THERE’S NO AMUSEMENT) TO GET WISDOM YOU FIRST SUFFER TO BE REBORN YOU FIRST DIE THERE’S NO RELIEF – IT GETS TOUGHER ALL REVELATIONS ARE LEFT BEHIND ATTEMPTS TO CONCEIT - ARE VAIN DESPICABLE CONFUSIONS - NO LONGER CAN DETAIN (ME)
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HUMILIATION 03:47
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IT’S ALL THE SAME, THERE’S NO REFORM PERMANENTLY EXHAUSTED, DRAINED TO BOTTOM THIS IS A STATE I SUFFER FROM SLUGGISH MOCKERY TO BE REBORN IN HUMILIATION I STAND OUT OF MASTERPLAN IN HUMILIATION I STAND LIFE BUILT ON SAND THERE’S NO ONE TO BLAME, IT’S ALL MY HARM PERMANENTLY BUSTED, I FEEL ALARM THIS IS A STATE OF DESPAIR AND SCORN AND IT STALKERS ME, NO PROSPECT OF TRANSFORM FUSSING FOR NOTHING, BUSTLING FOR NO AIM RAGING IN CONTRAST, AS RESULT - JUST EXHAUSTING RUNNING TO NOWHERE, HURRYING WITH NO CARE UNIFICATION, ALIENATION, TOTAL FRUSTRATION I TEND TO REJECTION I BETTER BE ON MY OWN THAN LET THIS CHAOS IN I BETTER BE ON MY OWN THAN TAKE PART IN CHAOS OR I’LL CREATE MY OWN KINGDOM.. FACING THE WORLDS, LOOKING THRU TOMORROW I SEE RULES I CANNOT FOLLOW I HAVE NO DREAMS OF PERFECT HEAVEN THERE’S JUST THE WAY THINGS HAPPEN THERE’S NO ONE TO BLAME, IT’S ALL MY HARM WILL IS RUSTED, I FEEL ALARM THIS IS A STATE I SUFFER FROM AND IT STALKERS ME, LONGING FOR TRANSFORM
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LIES OUTBREAK 05:03
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THERE'S NOTHING MORE TO PRAY ALL JUDGE WILL TAKE THEIR PAY WHEN SOUL BEGINS TO LIE WE FEEL SO EMPTY I CAN SEE THIS IN YOUR EYES IS IT GONNA EARN YOU A NAME? THIS IS A FINAL OUTBREAK OF LIES NO MORE THINGS CAN BE THE SAME THE WITNESS SHAKES IN FEAR THE TRUTH IS DYING NEAR OFFENDER NOW IS CLEAR WHERE IS THE SENSE? WHAT DONE IS DONE AND WHAT GONE IS GONE THE CAGE OF PAST HAS BEEN BROKEN AND THERE'RE NO WORDS UNSPOKEN LIES OUTBREAK END OF A CYCLE OR WILL IT BE REPLACED BY ANOTHER ONE? I NEED THE TRUTH COMING FROM YOU
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ANGUISH CHANT 03:55
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THERE'S NO BRIGHTNESS EVERYTHING'S JUST PALE AND LIFELESS JUST BEING - POINTLESS IF ONLY I COULD FIX IT ALL MY MIND'S RAMBLING TO DISTANT PLACES I SEE JUST SHADOWS, JUST EMPTY FACES (THIS IS) WORTHLESS BEING, (THESE ARE) HOSTILE PLACES JUST PALE SHADOWS WITHOUT TRACES TIME STANDS STILL.. NUMBNESS LESS THINGS CAN I EXPLAIN MY BEING IS POINTLESS WITHOUT FIXING IT ALL OH COME WITH ME UNDER THE TIME SHINING PALE ABOVE WITHOUT YOU MY SOUL'S DISTANT AMONG PALE SHADOWS WITH NO FACES IT'S ALL WORTHLESS, ALL GETS WASTED EVERYTHING IS POINTLESS, IT WILL ERASE ME OH COME WITH ME AND TIME ABOVE US WILL BRIGHTEN AND WE'LL LEAVE TRACES IN THESE HOSTILE PLACES
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WRETCH 03:13
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LEAVE ME BE AND MAKE ME SUFFER BEFORE I DO IT FIRST TO YOU MY SELFISH WILL.. IT MAY COMMAND ME HARDLY I CAN PLAY IT ALL ANEW NEVER YOU CAN TRUST ME IN FULL AS I AM WRETCH GET RID OF ME AND MAKE ME TOUGHER YOU BETTER HEED - I’M CURSED, IT’S TRUE YOU BETTER FLEE AS I AM A BLUFFER BEWARE LEST I CAN MAKE YOU FOOL
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HEALING THRU DECAY 03:08
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YOU’RE WASTED - SO AM I PAIN EMBRACED US - WE CAN'T DENY (THAT) BUT THERE’RE MOMENTS OF CARELESSNESS IT DOESN’T FEEL GOOD - IT JUST HURTS LESS ACCEPTING NO LIES BUILDING STRONG TIES YOU’RE TRUSTED – YOU’RE FRIEND OF MINE WE AIN’T DIVINE AND WE WALK THE LINE TO AVOID THE FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS USING (SOME) SUBSTANCES - IT HELPS TO CARE LESS MAYBE WE HURT OUR BODIES - BUT WE HEAL OUR SELVES WE MAY HURT OUR BODIES BUT WE HEAL OUR SOULS WE’RE BUSTED – WE’RE OUTTA LIFE PAIN EMBRACED US – CHOICE OF YOURS AND MINE WHILE THE MOMENTS OF CARELESSNESS IT DOESN’T FEEL GOOD – IT JUST HURTS LESS HEALING THRU DECAY I REALIZE ONE DAY WE WILL HAVE TO PAY BUT NOW WE’RE DRIVING DEMISE AWAY SCREW THE WHINY DOUCHEBAGS DROP BITHES’ CHICKENSHIT WE STUBBORN MOTHERFUCKERS DON’T NEED IT
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FORCEDLY HOSTILE 01:41
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I’VE ATTEMPTED NOT TO BE VIOLENT BUT IT’S WRONG TO BEAR YOUR SPIT YOU THINK I’M FRIGHTENED AS I AM SILENT AS I DON’T PREVENT YOU FROM TALKING SHIT BUT I’M NOT. YOU’RE JUST A SMALL MAN WITH A BIG MOUTH NOTHING TO PROVE YOU’RE JUST MAKING IT ROUGH I’M GIVING YOU TIME TO DROWN IN YOUR SLOUGH MOTHAFUCKA NO NEED IN HIGH WORDS ARGUING WITH YOU IS MOVING DOWNWARDS YOU’RE LAME AND WEAK YOU SPIN AROUND THE BOTTLE – YOU’RE SNEAK YOUR PATHETIC HATE, IS IT DECLARING OF WAR? YOUR NEGLECT AND WHINING WILL ALWAYS BE ABHORED YOUR WORDS HAVE NO WEIGHT, BUT YOU’LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE YOU’RE SCORNED AND WILL NEVER BE DEPLORED BUT YOU TRY TO DEBASE ME SO YOU FORCE ME TO BE HOSTILE AND FOSTER MY HATE YOU BETTER BACK OFF BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE YOU’RE DONE
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REPROBATE BREED 02:59
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I SEE THE WASTELAND OF THE DUST SUCCUMBING TO THE DARKNESS BREED POSSESSED BY FEAR AND LUST ULTIMATELY BLINDED, JUST LIKE FOREFATHERS ETERNAL SEQUENCES OF DREAD SPIRAL MOTION OF LEARNING NOTHING THREADS OF TERROR THAT NEVER END EVOKE SARDONIC LAUGHTER AND ALL INFERENCES ARE SAID DENIAL HITS SO THE MIND IS SLOUGHING CRAWLING THRU THE VALLEY OF THE DEAD THIS BREED WILL ALWAYS SUFFER
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ELAPSING SEASONS 03:26
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OPRESSED BY SLUMBER AND LIMPNESS OF THE MIND GET TOO EASILY DISTRACTED AIMS NOT FOUND YET SEEING DEEPNESS OF DECLINE GET OBEDIENTLY IMPACTED …AND THEN DISCOVERING …HOW MUCH TIME HAS BEEN WASTED …ELAPSING SEASONS REFLECT THE TRUTH GOTTA BREAK AWAY THOUGHTS SUNDERED ENERVATION OF THE MIND GET PHYSICALLY BUSTED WHAT GOES AFTER? RECOLLECTIONS UNDEFINED GET TOO FREQUENTLY DISGUSTED …AND THEN DISCOVERING …OF HOW MUCH TIME HAS BEEN WASTED ... FUCKED UP SEASONS …ELAPSING SEASONS REFLECT THE TRUTH GOTTA BREAK AWAY REFLECT THE TRUTH (WE FEEL) GOTTA BREAK AWAY (FROM THIS)

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released January 8, 2020

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STUBBORN Saint Petersburg, Russia

formed in late 2010 to play straightforward and brooding heavy music we personally like. Sludge metal, Doom and Hardcore as we see it.

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